4 Things I learned about myself in 2017

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It can be really hard to admit one’s own faults and flaws. Sometimes, however, we end up being too strict with ourselves. In 2017, I spent a lot of time thinking about my future, where I want myself to be in a certain amount of time and also what I have to change and improve to get there. Here are four things I have known for a long time, yet never truly wanted to admit to myself, that bug me and that I hope to change in the near future: 


I don’t do certain things, even though I know how good they are for me.

This actually goes for a vast number of things. One of those is doing yoga every day. This year, there had been a time where I would actually get on the mat every single day and do at least 30 minutes to an hour of yoga. This was the time I truly felt at my best. I was focused, calm, felt good in my own body, I was motivated to do things, I was inspired, plus, my back pain was basically gone. So why don’t I just pick my lazy self up and start doing yoga regularly again? I. Don’t. Know…

Other things I need to start doing a lot more often are: get up earlier and make the most of the day, spend more time in nature and explore things around where I live, cook more and experiment a lot more in the kitchen. The list goes on.

                                                                                                                                      

I have very little self-control.

I do think that I have a lot of self-control when it comes to certain things, but I feel like a have almost none when it comes to others. Quite a big problem for me is watching too many YouTube videos in a day and spending way too much time on Netflix. If I start watching one video, there is literally no end to it and I will spend the entire rest of the day doing so. And I realise how stupid that is, because I am basically watching other people live great lives while I am dreaming of having one on my own, when all I really do is waste my time. Don’t get me wrong, YouTube is a great platform and so is Netflix, but only if enjoyed in moderation and what I have been doing for the last four to five years is even less than unhealthy. It is concerning. 

 

I am easily distracted from what is important.

Again, tying in with the whole YouTube and Netflix theme. But this also goes for so many other scenarios. I should really consider changing my middle name to Procrastination as I seem to have mastered this art over the last couple of years. I am still amazed of the fact that, and this happened a lot, I managed to sit at my desk for hours and hours and didn’t open one single book or do one even semi productive thing. Sometimes, I feel like I am missing out on so much, but then again, I seem to just not care at all. But in the end, I do care and I am really scared of regretting this wasting of my time later on. I definitely need to change this!

 

I care a little too much about what other people think of me.

Admittedly, this has gotten a lot better, but I still care way too much. I don’t mean to say that being reckless and completely selfish is the goal, but I think a healthy dose of “I-don’t-give-a-damn” is super important. If I like a T-shirt, I should just wear it. If I don’t feel like putting on makeup for the day, why bother? If I don’t want to do something, just say no and don´t feel the need to justify every single one of your actions. This is something I have yet got to learn.


Do you also have annoying habits like those that you really want to get rid of? Let me know down below in the comments, I would love to read about it (since I am a very nosy person haha).